I got an email about yesterday's blog post. I won't post it here, because it's "her" story, but I might if she gives me permission. But, here is my response.
The last couple of months for me have been difficult because it started with her Speech Eval and I turned it into something bigger than it should have been. It in a way, it was my moment of weakness and I completely indulged into feeling sorry for myself. Like I mentioned, I took the Prozac, but that only lasted for a week, because I knew better. I knew that there could be far worse possible things and I knew that somewhere down the line someone would tell me that Lillian will be/is behind in this that or another. In a way, I had to "mom up"...kinda like man up about things! I don't want to be dependent on medication to make me happy or feel better about things. I didn't use my resources first. Why? Because I didn't open up! I have to learn to do that more often.
My resources would have been my local Ds group, online support group, my blogging friends, and even Facebook (which is a combo of the previous 3!).
Twice since Lillian's birth, someone who has suffered a greater loss than I, has proven to me that my life ain't all that bad. And you're right, it could have been worse.
And I think what you said hit the nail on the wall..."Hang in there and always let your faith carry you through those difficult times :)" Because I didn't let my faith carry me. I try to take it all on by myself!
Thank you again so much! I hope you keep me in your prayers as I will for you and your family! And maybe, I'll need you again to shake me up a bit and have you tell me to "mom" up! Because I sure I would need it!
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Here is more.
Prozac. Is it a cure all? I don't know. But since this last experience, I just wondered how many times a person is given Prozac as an answer to their problems. Yeah, I was a little down. But I wasn't out, you know. I really just needed a shoulder to cry on and for someone to tell me it's OK.
Indeed, there are times when it is good. I mean, without it in my past, my family may not be intact! Real and true depression is very scary! I've been there. But, this, what I'm going through now is not.
I really think that us mom's (and dad's) should learn to utilize ourselves more! I'm giving myself my own advice, hoping that it will help someone else!!! USE ME, USE YOUR SUPPORT GROUP, USE YOUR ONLINE GROUP...but use someone! I mean, this is the best kind of people "using" there is. I'm going to start using you guys more often...just warning you now!
I wish I shared my unhappiness earlier. But, I'm working through it now. I may not be over the hill yet, but I'm definitely seeing the top!
Alas...there is still more thoughts on this matter!
